I'm Back

So, I'm back. Who cares? I wouldn't. I just suck and keeping things up. I am in the midst of a battle. The first year of a new magnet high school. One of my collegues, who is fucking funny said it best. "We all are visionaries." She went on to say that visionaries aren't very good and buckling down, and getting the details to happen. That's true. I am sure that fits me. I can see where things should go, and how they should go, but I'm not that interested in making sure everything happens to see a vision through. That's my problem. I can get others exctied about something. I can get them going. But, I don't really want to see things through. I want to move things forward that are important. I don't want to be the one moving them. I have discovered something. I can't take the stress of teaching. I can't be an emotional dumpster any more. I can't be a well that needy kids draw from. Teachers are like that. i want to be a visionary. Small schools are important. They are the right thing to do. I just don't want to teach in one. I want to help the people who will carry out the vision. I want to lead them to the mountain, but not lead them to the summit. Is it wrong? I don't know.

Comments

[nathalie]

i don't think it's wrong. welcome back :)